The 19th of August was the 3rd anniversary of the death of my brother. He is a couple years older than me and he was a couple years wiser than me. I miss him alot and to think it had to take him getting sick to bring our family together. Yes, i know stupid huh? it seems that after my parents both passed away it seems that all of my family sorta went there own way for about 5 years after my parents passing and then i got a call that David was really sick and he did not have much time wow that was a knifr through the heart so i started making trips back to CA almost every weekend for the next couple years and i know i could not make up all the years that went by that we were not close so I was going to make dam sure that i could make his remaing days as happy as i could so i would go back and there was always a smile on his face each time i came and that was enough to make me happy and I would do anything he wanted and i wold take him shoppping or wherever or what ever he wanted to do. We talked alot and we cried alot and we laughed alot. He did get to come to Las Vegas to visit me for a weekend and i rolled him all over las vegas strip and it was so amazing to have him and we just had the hest time . I got the call at work 3 years ago at work that he had passed and I once again went back for his funeral remembering all the good times, forget the bad times and hoping I did enough his last days to make him happy. The one thing he wanted was to have his ashes released in the ocean he loved the beach and that was done in his honor.
If you ask me what was wrong i can only say that this is what smoking will do and if you smoke this is what is going to happen to you that smoking is not good for you and his veins were so clogged that the doctor says there is no hope. So i am pleading with you that if you have a loved one this is what you have to look forward to . I can tell you how much i miss him he was the best and he will be in my heart and in his honor i do light a candle for him and always say how many more loved ones will be taken away from us by smokeing. Thank you for listening to me and sharing my story,
He lives in the Stockton/Tracy area of northern California and I haven't seen or spoken to him in over 7 years. What makes it even more difficult to communicate with him is that he doesn't have access to a computer or a phone so everything has to be done via snail-mail which is ridiculous in this day and age! Anyway, I would like to see him sometime soon just to know that he's okay and, unlike for you, I hope it isn't too late.
Wish I had done it YEARS earlier, but it's not easy to do and you have to *really* want to do it. Half-assed won't work. My best friend is an amputee who lost a leg in part due to smoking. But he continues to puff away knowing that it could well cost him his remaining leg, too. Tough habit to quit.
As a teenager the pressure to smoke was very real. All my friends smoked. My parents and my aunts/uncles all smoked. Many of my cousins smoked. I remember buying myself a package of smokes and going upstairs in the old farmhouse where we lived. I squirreled myself away in my bedroom, closed the door and lit up one cigarette and sprawled across my bed looking out the window. I took all of two puffs then said to myself "that tastes like shit, what the hell am I doing!?" and then threw the whole package away. Never put another one in my mouth...
Now, there are other things I have put in my mouth... But that is another story!
Nicotine is a highly addictive substance. We used to call smoking a "habit" but it is really an addiction.