5 months later and reality is finally setting in

I met you when I was all alone and hope was lost. You became my soldier my big daddybear my love my protector. You risked arrest trying to storm nyc and save me on 911. You nurtured my when I was viciously assaulted. Supported me through blindness and fought a team of doctors so I could be saved fron terminal illness. We we finally able to plan our wedding. But your fell in with a family of crazy drug dealing thugs. You turned your back on me to be at their beck and call. You abandoned me and let me know your life was in their wold. They made you feel cool as a whiteboy tHe plans for our life and future...after 13 years...were meaningless. You destroyed all that mattered to me. At my age so wonder if any bear will ever want me. I just wonder...how to you live each day with no hope? Will any bear ever want me?