Okay, I'm trying to figure out how to explain just how crazy I think something is without offending anyone. When I was younger I would have said "Fuck whoever gets offended!" Fortunately I have matured some over the years and I try to live by "Consider others before you consider yourself." Mom's tried to teach me that as a kid but I was in my thirties before it stuck. But having said that my position will be fairly clear.
I had thought this was just a passing fad but I guess it still happens. By now I'm sure you're like "will you please get to the fuckin' point!" The point is these so-called " Conversion Parties." I can't wrap my head around why someone would intentionally attempt to contract HIV. What the fuck is wrong with you?????
Like many of us, I've lost friends to that shit. Three to this point and that shit gets no easier to deal with. I have never met anyone poz that's said they're glad they have an incurable, deadly virus destroying them from the inside. Why a person would choose that kind of hardship is a complete mystery to me.
I realize HIV/AIDS is not quite the death sentence it was in the eighties, nevertheless people are still dying from it EVERY SINGLE DAY! Having seen people I love waste away because of it, there is not a single fucking thing you can tell me that's a plus about it. I see guys, perhaps some that read this, fighting their ass off to stay healthy and the reason they fight so hard is because of one sobering ass fact: they know if they don't, that shit will kill them. Why would a sane person volunteer for this? And it usually youngsters that think they want to walk this path.
And try as I might, I can't be cool, or PC, or understanding on this next point: WHAT IN THE FUCK IS UP WITH THE PEOPLE WILLING TO GIVE THIS SO CALLED "GIFT"? Do they not realize what they are truly doing?? I have nothing but respect for poz cats that play safe and think of the welfare of the guy they're in bed with. But for someone to go to a party with the express intent to infect someone....usually a younger someone......and have the nerve to call it a gift?? That's not even remotely cool. I don't even have words for whatever that is. It's one thing to infect someone through lack of planning, meaning accidentally. I will even go as far as say if you bareback with a guy that's aware of your status and he becomes infected. That's a chance he was willing to take. ANYTHING else though....
I don't know, maybe its just me but I feel like there is something fundamentaly wrong when young, healthy boys and men are willing to do this to themselves. And them mother fuckers willing to accommadate them....well clearly I have issue with that. I would love it if anyone that reads this comments on it. I want to hear other opinions and points of view, pro and con in relation to what I've written here. Call me an asshole, hater, punk ass bitch if that's how you feel, I really don't care. I just want to hear from some of you. Who knows, maybe I've over reacted ( doubt it!).
Much love and respect to all (except them mother fuckers intentionally making people sick, hate to say it but they got nothing coming from me. And yeah, I know I'm wrong for that.). Peace.
I just don't get it.....
Thank you for posting this. i agree, I do not understand conversion and I never will. I find it sad, tragic, and just plain wrong. Do we as [some] gay men lack thrill and fire in life that we turn to this? This is not hot or sexy to me and i will never participate in a conversion party. I have no issue sexing or dating a person whom is poz, that IMHO, comes with with the territory gay life at times. Conversion, and the popularity and aceptance of it, just floors me. There are WAY hotter things to do than this.
Ya know Steve, I'm done with holding my tongue on things. I stopped being polite on issues. If I think someone's idea (such as the one you just mentioned) is stupid or can cause harm to them or others, I tell them out right "you're crazy". As Rayandy said, these kids think they are an iron wall when it comes to this stuff. I've heard several kids ask for an HIV+ guy to "give them the gift". I just don't understand where their brains are.
AS A POZ "SURVIVOR", I FIND IT ODD FOR THOSE WHO WILLFULLY WANT BAREBACK SEX WITH POZ GUYS. I GET OFFERS LIKE THAT ALL THE TIME, EVEN WHEN MY STATUS IS KNOWN. MANY WANT TO "NUTT" IN ME. MIND-BOGGLING, INDEED.
I don't understand it as well. Its a kick. Russian Roulette. The consecuences come later. And of course, there are lots of people helping you to choose the wrong option... they might seem interesting for someone who still does not know who he is and where he wants to go... or someone who thinks that the same guy will be a caring buddy, afterwards.
I have lived thru hiv.....In the beginning, the attitude of those infected was..."give this to as many as I can." The young today see hiv infection as a manageable disease. That is just wrong. I havew stayed std free for 335 yrs, once I educated myself on them. I do say that I am dawmn lucky to have the genetic mutation protecting me from getting or giving the virus. I have a tlak with ALL who I am sexual with. It's called be responsible for YOUR actions. You cant' save the world, but you can save yourself. Do so!
I can't believe someone would intentionally set out to get this or give this to someone else. We have come a long way in the treatment of HIV and aids, but still looks like a long way before there is a cure. Over the years, I have seen alot of people die from this. Right now the only way to stop this from spreading is the use of a condom. I am completely baffled why someone would insist on bare backing, especially when he doesn't know the person he's with. Good job Steve.....