Thoughts from a bareback bottom or why I love to take men's loads

This blog post mirrors part of my profile post from the now gone X-tube. It will better elucidate my attitude and feeling about bareback sex and taking men’s loads.

Let me preface this post before I go any further by saying that I am not advocating bareback sex nor do I believe you should practice it if it does not line up with your beliefs about sex and safety. I would also like to add that I am not averse to Tops wearing a condom if that is what they choose, I will say that I will not require that a Top wear one, in fact I prefer that he doesn’t.

I can’t say where my feelings come from regarding getting fucked and taking a Top’s load but I know that it has become firmly ingrained in me. I didn’t start out having bareback sex but it was several instances of it just happening that made it so much more erotic and satisfying than what is known as ‘safer sex’. The first time that I took a guy’s raw cock up my hole and he came inside of me, I thought “what did I just do”. However, the more I thought about it, the more turned-on I became, although it was many months before I did it again.

Gradually over the years, I found myself needing to feel the power of a Top’s raw cock inside of me and seeing (and hearing) the pleasure that the Top experienced when he began firing his seed deep within me. Many bareback bottoms, myself included, say: Once you go bareback, there’s no turning back. I have found this to be completely true.

Now for me, taking a Top’s load, or seed, inside of me gives me a great satisfaction and I feel it shows great respect for the Top. His balls, or as I heard a Top refer to them once ‘cum tanks’, takes approximately 64 days to generate a new sperm cell. Of course, millions are produced every day but it takes 64 days for each sperm cell to reach maturity. Knowing this as a bottom, I feel that the utmost respect must be paid to those cum tanks, the sperm that are produced in them, the seminal fluid that they mix with making the semen and the cock that powerfully ejaculates those sperm and the Top's DNA into a warm hole.

To ask a Top to prevent the spreading of his seed by trapping it in a rubber just seems unorthodox and contrary to a Top’s true nature, which is to spread his seed. How can the seed be spread if it is shot into a rubber and tossed in the trash? It just seems profane to me to do that to the Top and his sperm tanks.

Now when I take a Top’s seed inside of me, I want the Top to shoot it as deeply as he can. I do not want him to pull out and shoot on my hole, even if he pushes back in. That is for porn movies not for reality. I want the Top to push in as deeply as he can when he goes over the edge and begins to empty those sperm tanks. I want that seed as deeply planted as he can possibly plant it…and I intend to hold onto that seed as long as I possibly can. There have been Top’s that I have been with who have shot so deeply that their load never did come out. Those times I find highly erotic as I feel I must have absorbed their seed and their DNA inside of me. To carry a Top’s seed within me is an incredible feeling, knowing that he found pleasure in my hole and that I now have his DNA deep inside of me and if I happen to absorb his load completely, I will have his DNA with me for always; and the memory of a great and complete breeding.

As an adjunct, I will say that if I give a guy a blowjob, the same rules apply in respecting the Top’s load: the load will always be swallowed. I never like to see a Top waste his load; deep in my hole or down my throat, if you’re a Top your load will never be wasted with me.

I would also like to add, that I am very selective when it comes to allowing Top’s to breed me. There has to be some communication beforehand and I have to get to know someone first. Even though I love taking men’s loads, I have to feel a connection with them in some way, even if it’s through the exchange of messages/texts/emails/phone calls, a connection has to be there. I am pretty selective when it comes to Top’s breeding me but being selective has led to some very hot, sweaty encounters and many a satisfied Top.

I want to close this post by saying, please respect my feelings and don’t send nasty messages if you don’t agree with what I have posted here. We all have our own individual feelings and desires and we all have differences in what we find erotic or what turns us on. If you don’t agree with what I’ve written here, that is perfectly fine, I will respect your opinion and I hope that you will do the same for me.